Sunday, June 04, 2006
went to esplanade last night.
went to watch those guys ride.
those guys?
erm okay i shall just name those i know.
HAHA.
cause there's alot more i don't know.
hmm.
//riders: weibin.lucas.jonathan.raymond.
did i left anyone out?
hmm.
okay that's about the people i know i think.
they were cool. XD.
hmm.
cheryl came to join me also.
after her video.
haha.
oh. and sion kor came to pass me some stuffs.
my kor so nice.
he bought so many things for me.
and now he's still wanna paid for my speakers.
=) i love my kor!!
hahahs.
okay.
yesterday was alright.
better than staying at home to rot.
and think all those funny stuffs.
HAHA.
and better than driving myself nuts.
okay i officially love Esplanade.
as a ARTS student.
and its a good place to CHILLLLL.
hahahas. right cheesecake? XD
love that place.
rocks.
nice quiet place.
=)
and love that corridor.
so colorful.
hahah. =)
//edits:
i'm feeling down enough.
if you don't have anything nice to say.
don't say.
even though you ARE kidding.
but ya.
i'm feeling bad enough.
and you are not helping me much.
stop please. stop.
anyway.
i know alot of people have been asking about me recently.
and sorry to all of those whom i've said i'm fine to.
i lied.
i'm really not fine.
but its not that i don't wanna share with you guys.
just that... i feel more dependent on my CLOSE friends.
and my cousin.
and i don't really see the point in telling you guys.
because you guys won't understand.
probably because you all are GUYS.
oh just maybe cause my stuffs are too complicated.
and only my close friends know what's going on.
cause i constantly update them.
so ya.
i know you guys care.
but please understand.
sometimes i can't share stuffs with you guys.
seriously.
you all won't understand much.
and it IS kinda complicated.
some stuffs are really the kind..
that i can only share with another girl.
not matter how nice you guys are.
or how sensitive you guys can be.
GUYS are, and will forever be GUYS.
all i can do..
is try to regain some of my older self last time.
and make myself look alright.
so please. understand guys.
i know some of you might think..
i don't treat you all like friends.
so i'm not telling you guys stuffs.
its not true k.
even my mom don't know what's going on.
she just asked my cousin.
if i have had a boyfriend.
cuz my mom thinks i'm acting weird this few days.
i don't deny i'm not.
because i'm also not sure.
what's happening to me and why.
and i'm trying to find out the answers.
so bear with me guys.
and soon.
the old cheerful and bubbly eileen will be back.
i hope.
and hope for me too.
i don't wanna stay this way.
its too much for me to bear as well.
so.
help me.
ALL OF YOU.
love you all.
<3
me_________`e-leen *
5:11 PM
